She's breaking of her EA...supposedly

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Update:

It's been 7 days since my last update. She has indeed stopped contacting the OOG.

She still hasn't recommitted and isn't coming around much, but baby steps are being taken.

Last Sat night, she gave me an pretty lengthy apology. "I'm sorry for the pain I've caused. Sorry I never accepted you for who you are. Sorry I never let you "in" all the way. I've discovered that my view of love is an adolescent one." At this point, I'm pretty numb. I just said "Thank you, that was nice of you to say.". I had no emotion in my response...I truly am numb about this. I said I didn't know what to say.

She's also searching the Internet for "emotional abuse" under the guise that my behavior...my emotional outbursts...constitute abuse or emotional blackmail. For some reason, I always thought that being cheated on was pretty abusive. I think she has an unrealistic view of herself in the universe and has narcissistic tendancies.

Yesterday, she went to her therapy (individual) session and I dropped by her parents house to pick up the dogs and take them home. So since my last update, I've been very upbeat and positive...happy and supportive. No pressure and no talk of OR. I went to leave and gave her a hug and kissed her on the cheek. I said, "Have a good session...I'll see you at home!". As I was getting in the car she grabbed my arm and gave me a kiss on the lips...nothing hot and heavy...just a kiss. So I'm confused...

As this process has gone on, I'm starting to wonder if I wouldn't be happier with someone else? She may or may not want to come back to me, but now I'm climbing on the fence. Out of curiosity, I've searched on some singles and social networking sites. The feedback I've gotten has been way more than I expected. There are so many beautiful sexy loving women out there, I can really see that if my wife does leave...I'll have no problem moving on. I'll be hurt and it'll take time to get over her, but as they say, the best way to get over someone is to find a new someone....Just reconnecting with other women, truthfully and openly, has shown me that I deserve more than I have had from my wife. I deserve a whole person to be my partner, not a narcissistic partial personality. I deserve better.