Things are still going well with my H and I. We still spend most of our nights together except for monday because he plays in the band and I leave when they are done playing and he stays and gets wasted. So last night I came home alone and now that is starting to feel wierd to me.
My H said something wierd the other night, that made me stop and think. He said that he thinks that we are just on different cycles in our lives. I was thinking inside to myself that its like he is starting being a teenager/fratboy where as I have allready been through that stage and now I am more in the "lets settle down phase".
I guess i keep thinking to myself that I hope with time he will grow up and act like an adult again, instead of constantly wanting to party. I say that I hope, but I am also enjoying the time he wants to be with me now. I know it is precious, and I get so scared that he will up and run out again.
Its like I am living with a H who kind of sort of wants to be M'd and sortof wants to have his freedom. He is in a type of limbo. Until he figures things out, we will live apart and he will continue living his freedom.
When he talks of his future, it is always about changing his career and buying things he wants and no talk of goals we used to have together (like raising a family, moving back into a nice house together, ect...). I can be patient and wait to set these goals back into action, I just dont feel like i am sure he will ever want these things again.
My H still acts and talks like he is completely in his MLC mode most of the time when talking about life topics. He is still seeking all sorts of acceptance from people in our community and all his new friends at the bars in town. He gets drunk and acts like he has had the best night ever when he runs into old acquaintances, and this happens all the time. He is changed into a very flirtatious man, and is constantly using his dry humor and picking at or on the other females around us, when he never used to act this way at all.
I dont want to sound like I am just complaining, I guess I just really need to know if this stuff is normal, and how much of it I should put up with and for how long. Suggestions, anyone??? I know each person and case is different and how long I put up with things are up to me, but I am hoping to hear from others that have or are piecing. Thanks, TIPPER
