Oldtimers: Return or not..what finally happened?

[Sanderika]

Thank you Barb...

I appreciate every word you said.

I understand the consequences of each of the roads in front of me.

I am searching for the answer.

The questions I want answered are probably only going to be answered in time, perhaps even a long time from now.

Do I continue to stand?

Do I file and go?

Why is he standing?

Why isn't he filing if he is already gone?

What is keeping him from returning, really?

What is keeping him from filing, really?

Is status quo enough for all of us?

I have a lot to think about and it helps to talk to you all. I wish I could get a sign that would light up in neon and flash rapidly in front of my eyes pointing to the solution.

It is lonely and disheartening in limboland. It hurts like h*ll. I feel so bad all the time and am tired of having to buck up and be brave and strong. I want to be free. I wake up with little change to look forward to. One day in my life is really just like all the others. Yeah, I GAL a lot but my life is the same, if you know what I mean and I am sure you do.

Thank you Barb, I appreciate you...

Sanderika