H is having affair after all - part 3

[Evie]

Thanks Jen. I don't know whether to believe H or not, but like you said, don't think about it and move on, I know I can't control H only myself.

I've had to see him a bit the last few days to hand over the boys as the girls aren't around atm (holidays)to look after them. I was just thinking last night that our R atm seems to be how it was before the split, meaning it just seems like a friendship. Its sad that we once meant so much to one another and now we're just about civil, no warmth, no humour nothing.

I don't know if I can do the friendship thing atm, I know that would make it easier for both, but its too early for me, he broke my heart how do I move forward to become what he wants? I also in way don't want to make it easy for him, every day i
answer questions from the boys. The four year old last nite commented that it was just the 3 of us now that his sisters were on holiday, but daddy was alone in his flat!

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I dont know what the future holds for any of us - i am still trying to get through this whilst trying to remain sain - for me to say i am going to do this and that with some body else is a joke - do you not think life is crap enough at the moment without making it more complicated

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What do you think he meant by this?

Jen - in your sitch, was there ever a time that you weren't sure about your feelings towards H? I just don't know how I feel. If H said today he wanted me back, i'm not sure i would want him, certainly not what we had anyway.

I know his feelings are unchanged because of how he treats me and because he is madly getting the house ready to go on the market.

Generally i feel much better in myself, I am happier with things, H is pulling his weight now with the business and boys, i have more free time, i'm not so stressed or tired and i get time to be myself. I went to a bar on FRiday night with a live band, now 6 months ago i would have hated every single minute of it, now i can't wait to go again..i'm enjoying myself.

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