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Here it is 3 am and I cannot sleep again. Things will not stop racing through my mind, it really sucks. I don't want to go back on anti-depressants.

H picked up kids tonite in our '68 charger with GF as sidekick. So frustrating! In my car!!!! I did not speak to her but allowed it, he said he would park down the street if I wanted. Was that the right thing to do? I don't know anymore. So another activity that I missed. THen went to his sisters. I have not spoken to this sister in law for some time. She has been a bit of an enabler for him, he is there several times a week and that is how he met GF through his niece. Just a really bad influence over there and I hate it. All 4 of them slept in a tent in her backyard a few weeks ago. Very inappropriate, especially with the kids inside but he doesn't think so. Guess I am the only one with morales anymore.

Very depressed, going to find something to do.