Jeff, If I were you I would see if you had a friend that could watch the kids for you, even if for a couple of hours and just lay around the house if you want. Watch a movie, don't do anything to clean...just relax. I am just as guilty spending so much time with my kids, throwing myself into their lives, but honestly if you don't save yourself a bit there won't be anyone there for them.
Sometimes my parents will take 2 of the kids, my in-laws used to take the other 2 just so I could have a little time to myself. You just sound soooo wound up. Join us for a movie night. Find something please.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory