You know what I think is quite possibly the craziest about all this is b/c I had my own personal demons to fight, I spent time in our relationship subconsciously doing things to undo our bond b/c I felt I didn't deserve to be loved. I figured this out through a lot of therapy, but now I'm wondering if W is doing the same type of thing.
See, she was uncovering some of her past garbage when she stopped therapy and headed down the D road. Now I'm wondering if part of her is trying to push me away b/c she doesn't feel like she deserves to have me back. That she doesn't feel like it is right for me to change and her not to do so. It sure seems to me at times that she's trying to make me give up on her.
Hey Rob, I am quite certain that my darling has this same sort of subconcious mindset. I know that she views her own life as a "train wreck". She is currently going through the "softening" portion of the cycle of the merry-go-round. She made contact with me yesterday, much sooner than I thought that it would take for her to call me. She says that she really misses the dog and wants to give her a special treat she bought for her. These are the same lines that she has used before. Of course she knows that in order for the dog to see her that will mean that I will have to see her. So silly .. the things they use to "hide" behind.
