For the Guy with Kids and a WW 8

[hopeful4her]

Last night, I got what I wanted. I went and disrupted the movie with a quick dance move and then layed down with D6 on the sofa. She came and layed down on my stomach. She eventually fell asleep. Just like when she was baby.

I think the movie was "Step Up" part 72 or something. I call it break dancing. Thats what we called it back in the day. Now they have all kinds of names for it. But holy moly! These kids now a days. They can do stuff I didn't think a human could do. They can DANCE. Roomie likes movies like that. It had some cool music, too. After the movie, I carry D6 to her bed, kiss D11 goodnight and go to bed myself. Roomie had gone to S14's room to get her alarm clock, I guess, so no goodnight for roomie. For some reason, I had trouble getting to sleep.

Today, I just had a strange feeling. Can't really describe it. Just kind of empty. A lost feeling. I think for some reason, I'm just feeling lonely. I don't really know why or what brought it on.

I shouldn't have, but I sent B a text today.

"Whats up? Hope U enjoyed Chris Madrids(burger joint). I had a baloney sandwich. Yummie! Im at work taking a break. Let me know the plan for Patsy's Bday when U figure it out. C ya."

We have another very close friend(in the business)whose bday is coming up. Supposed to have a get together.

She replied,

Lucked out. Mom took me and Allysa to Carino's instead. Then we just rented movies. I think Friday for Patsy. Best day for me. Will let U know.

As I get the reply, coworker Y is talking to me. I get a smirk on my face looking at my phone.

That started an odd conversation.

"Who's that? Is that B?"
"Yeah. Its nothing."
"Ommmm. Did something happen Friday night? Something happened, didn't it?"
"No. I'm not looking for something like that."
"Why? She's cute."
"I'm married. Hello. Besides, theres a few traits about B that irritate the crap out of me."
"(Gasp)Like what?!"
"Since I've know her, she is constantly puting on make up. Looking in the mirror fixing it. I mean constantly. That is self esteem issues big time."
"Yeah, your right."
"And she is always flipping her hair. And for 38 years old, she is really naive. Like a child in a lot of ways. You can say something to her and she says, 'What does that mean?'"
"Be careful what you ask for. Some girls might NEED the makeup."
"Hey don't get me wrong. She's fun and sweet and hot looking. And I don't care what is on the outside(there's more of her to love like roomie). And I'm NOT looking for a relationship. Not right now."
"But you don't have to be serious. Just someone to hang out with."
"I'm not looking for "girl" friends. I need to hang out with guys."
"Why not? They and help you....."
"A 'girl' friend might tell you how nice and sweet you are. And then they are out looking for 'bad boy'"

I'm just having fun with it. But a lot of people I know encourage me to do something. No way. So I'm flirting. I've never been the type before. I think I'm just wanting some companionship now. Not sexual. Just companionship. From both my male AND female friends. Like support. I don't feel like I'm being inappropriate. I think I'm strong enough to not let something happen. I'm a controlled person.

Like I posted before, I need to heal myself and figure out my life first.

My best friend called me today, too. He told me that roomie called him on Saturday to invite his daughter, D11's best friend) to go swimming. He gave her a story about not being able to. He wants nothing to do with roomie. I tell him I understand. He doesn't trust her anymore. He's a single dad. I tell him that D11 might be calling to invite his D to go swimming more often.
"She's goofy. I'm not going to hang out with her."

I tell him, "Neither am I, bro. Neither am I."