picasso, read through your thread here and I do feel your pain. I just passed the one year mark being apart from my wife. Take what I am going to type, as an observation that you hopefully will take to heart and apply into your life. One thing that keeps resurfacing to me in your post is the neediness that you have for your wife to be in your day to day life. You seem to spend a lot of time dwelling on the feelings you have for her (getting emotional when you see her at her apartment, crying on a daily basis, etc.). I am not saying this is wrong or bad, but it seems to be consuming you. What are you doing for yourself. Are you building your own life, personality, identity or are you still living the married life, but with no wife? You have got to be you and live for you, not for the past and what was, but for what will and can be. I am not telling you to push your feelings for her aside, but to build your own identity. I bet your wife will find that more attractive then how she views you now. Even if you do not speak in words to your wife on how you feel and you do not tell her verbally that you miss her and that when you leave her apartment it crushes you, she can see it. Our thoughts, feeling emotions are not only expressed through our words, but through our body language, tone of voice, facial expressions etc. So even though you are not speaking how you feel verbally, I promise you that you are showing it. We are what we feel and it shows. No matter how hard you try, it shows. What are you showing her? Needy, clingy, wimpy? Or strong, confident, self-respecting?
“Do you want to be RIGHT or want to be LOVED” “You have to have a life to share a life with someone” “When you stop resisting, you start learning”
