Hi My computer just got back online and wanted to see how you are doing. I'm so proud of you that you didn't bite the bait and let her go to the wedding alone without sacrificing your dignity or saying anything you would regret.
As far as the wedding albumn it's great that she wants to have it because then maybe it will bring back some feelings for her.
As far as when she says that you are inconsistent I would suggest saying calmly but honestly, yes I understand my decisions about how to handle this can be inconsistent. I'm doing my best to handle this situation.
Yes my feelings can go from one way to another and again I'm doing my best given this situation to have patience with myself and my feelings.
Yes you may feel uncomfortable having conversations with me. You may be sensing that I don't feel safe being myself with you. If she asks why you can say that to feel safe being ones self you have to feel safe that someone loves you unconditionally as you are, flaws and all, and this is not the situation here.
