Well, to be honest yes it was meant in an angry way. I am so sick of you knowing it all Imp. You do not hold the KEY here. None of us does.
I HAVE a life, it may not be the one you would chose but it is the one I chose.
Yes I still hurt like HELL, and maybe that means I'm stuck, and maybe that will keep me stuck forever. Is that not EXACTLY what others must let go ?! Don't we do that to our spouses accept their choices and let go ?!
I am really tired of being sweet to you and 'taking' all your 'very well meant comments' they anger me. Maybe because there is truth in them, maybe because there really isn't.
And Happy, I am very sorry if in 7000 posts I finally sound a little bit bitter and not so sweet anymore. I am tired of this, I truly am. I don't know where to go and it is at these crossroads that I have always seemed to make the 'wrong' choices.
I don't want people to just come over and post all sweetness and praise. But I am not ready to have SO MUCH 'truth' thrown at me.
It has been too much, for too long. And yes, I too can break.
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
