On the bumpy road towards found...

[JWS]

Ok take two, I had just finished a reply to you when my foot bumped the surge protector and my computer shut down.

I know what you mean about being tired, I feel exhausted today. Sometimes I read you post and it like you are in my head saying how I feel but with different words. I agree that to understand a person you do have to look at their background.

Right now my W and I are falling right along family lines if you will, all the major differences in how we were raised are the differences we are facing now. I too have been told to get out now while I have the easy excuse but there is not a chance in !@#$ that I will do that and I am glad you wont either. Despite all of this I still worship the ground she walks on, only now I don’t do it blindly, and it is more based on her potential then actions.

Have you heard Jimmy Buffets “Breath in Breath out move on” you are fighting a hurricane and if it does not kill you it makes you stronger. Not even the worst hurricane out there has ended the world. Remember you have two huge assets on your side, God and Time. Three if you count this website.

I absolutely hate being an outsider to a life that I was once the most intimate part of and I know you do too.

Do you think that he has really worries or guilt about you drinking and if so that could be a 180 for you? I am not at all saying there is anything wrong with it but if you felt it would relieve even a little of his guilt it might be a good thing to show him.

What did you mean about “dealt with loss before”