a bit of a tweak.. thoughts?

I don't really know where to start with this, but here goes.

I respectfully and sincerely apologize for hurting you in anyway, shape or form. My intent was not to hurt

you, ever. How I went from being the guy I was when we met, to the guy i turned into, i am not sure. Alot of

withheld emotion is what i think, i was always the type to hold all emotions in until the boiling point.

When my dad died, i held it all in, and never really got in touch with those feelings until i was in my 20's

(dad died when i was 10).In the past 2 months, I have gone and revealed myself to people like never before.

The anger has gone away. How could I possibly be angry when i have such a great wife, dogs, cats, family,

job and friends(save a few). Life is way too short to be angry. I was dishonest with you and tookadvantage

of you, that was selfish, and i understand why you are angry, and I don't blame you for being angry for even

a moment. I wasn't aware that whatever I did, would affect the both of us and had I done so, I could have

seen that you loved me regardless.

You supported me, and never held me back. I should have done a better job at supporting your endeavors. I

know how hard you work and how much you wanted your business. I am very very proud of you.

You were my heart and soul for 4 years, my everything. I enjoyed travelling with you, living with you,

loving you. You taught me alot about things I never knew could happen. You showed me new places and

introduced me to new people, and I am so appreciative of that.

I am working on bettering myself , i have "me" until the end of time, and if i am not happy with myself, i

will never be truly happy. Going to the gym and doing yoga is something i should have started long ago, it

completely takes all the stress out of my day and translates into positive energy.I have gotten out any

dis-honesty from my past , nothing but the truth from now on. I don't know why i ever tried to impress

anyone , I am fine just the way I am.

We were great friends & had alot of hopes and dreams together. I looked forward to having children with you

and raising a family together. I think we would be great parents.

I hope someday you forgive me

I love you,