Ms. Imp and Her Magic Kumquat 2

[girlfromipanema]

Good one, g. I don't know if I think he's doing it to "mess" with me. Maybe it's perfectly innocent. I'll find out soon enough.

I don't harbor any feelings of animosity towards my h right now. I mostly feel sadness that I lost a really great friend. We used to get along so well and have so much fun together. Even if we were just watching a movie at home on a Sunday afternoon. We used to share so many laughs. Now all of that is history. Part of me would have preferred being single and "just friends" with him than ever getting married. On the flip side, I've learned so much about myself through this experience that I wouldn't want to change anything.

Why do I feel so much disgust and dislike for OW? I can't stand the sight of her, the sound of her voice or footsteps, the thought of her... I have no respect for her and no love for her anymore. Why am I so lenient with my h, but so hardcore with her?