The road goes ever on...

[jon2911]

After the texts above, W called. Yesterday was our 1-year separation anniversary (yay!).

She said "I'd really like to see you next weekend, but are you still playing at church? I don't think I can budge on that". We talked for a while. A lot of "You say you're different, but you're still the same" statements. I told her it's the last thing I want for this to come between us, and she said "well, it has for five years".

Anyway, it's tough. All religion stuff aside, this is really my GAL. Yesterday I played two morning services, one evening, hung out with the guys in between. Their wives came and we had ate together and hung out until 10 PM. This happens every other Sunday night. When I tell W about it, she says things like "I hate musicians and everything they stand for". But she'd really relate to the wives, most of whom regret marrying a musician at times, and they're honest about it

I talked with a few guys about my sitch, including the worship pastor. He said "she's still in Houston, right?" He thought it was ridiculous for her to move away, then tell me what I can't do here. It would be different if she was moving back, trying to make it work, and asking me to take some time off. He said there's much bigger problems between us than me playing on Sundays. Also, he said the community is important. She's gone, what am I supposed to do, sit around?

I thanked him for his perspective, asked for a couple weeks off to meet with my counselor and make a good decision on this. W called today asking "do you hate me?" I told her absolutely not, that it was just awkward to deal with our car insurance yesterday (we need to decide on that by Aug. 9th). She also invited me to come for the whole weekend! We're already starting to make plans. I can't wait.

I feel like this is similar to ms ladybug's "move away with me" from her H. Interesting how the WAS still feels like they can still make demands on us, and sometimes the GAL ticks them off. So I'm trying to find a balance.