I know you miss the intimacy with your H but you will have to put those thoughts on the backburner for now.
Some do continue to be intimate with their LBS while others do not due to the guilt, shame and of course the OP.
I did not view the intimacy as a priority at all as I had other things that were more important for me to think about.
You'll get thru this.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19