so i am debating sending this (it's not quite done) .. maybe someone can shed some light on whether this should wait or not?
W,
I respectfully and sincerely apologize for hurting you in anyway, shape or form. My intent was not to hurt you, ever. How I went from being the guy I was when we met, to the guy i turned into, i am not sure. Alot of withheld emotion is what i think, i was always the type to hold all emotions in until the boiling point. When my dad died, i held it all in, and never really got in touch with those feelings until i was in my 20's (dad died when i was 10).In the past 2 months, I have gone and revealed myself to people like never before. The anger has gone away. How could I possibly be angry when i have such a great wife, dogs, cats, family, job and friends(save a few). Life is way too short to be angry. I have been dishonest with you and taken advantage of you, that was selfish, and i understand why you are angry, and I don't blame you for being angry for even a moment.
You were my heart and soul for 4 years, my everything. I enjoyed travelling with you, living with you, loving you.
I am working on bettering myself , i have "me" until the end of time, and if i am not happy with myself, i will never be truly happy. Going to the gym and doing yoga is something i should have started long ago, it completely takes all the stress out of my day and translates into positive energy.I have gotten out any dis-honesty from my past , nothing but the truth from now on. I don't know why i ever tried to impress anyone , I am fine just the way I am.
We were great friends & had alot of hopes and dreams together.
