Living without her. Knowing that it's probably certain that she cheated on me from the beginning of our marriage. Knowing that we will never be married again. Looking ahead of me and seeing a blank wall. Feeling this pain every minute, EVEN WHEN I'M ASLEEP, for heavens sake! Do you know how many nightmares I've been having?? I had another last night!
Almighty Lord, please make me wrong. Please let it be my judgment being scuttled by this devastation. Please, O God!
