I usually don't believe him at all. But once in awhile, I just wonder. I guess I could look at the letters/cards he used to write me and the pictures of us before all this started to remind myself that we did used to be extremely happy, but I think it would just make me sad right now.
I saw Sex and the City last week and Charlotte gets sad because her life is so perfect and she feels like something bad is just going to happen because she is so happy. I remember feeling so like that. I would look around and be so thankful for everything I had and then I'd think my life is just too good to be true, something bad is going to happen. At the time, I would get scared that the "something bad" would be the health or death of someone close to me, never ever thinking an A would be it. Then I'd tell myself, my H has lost both his parents within 15 months of each other, that is the "something bad". This mlc stuff is certainly something you can't possibly imagine unless either you or your spouse is going through it.
New, I don't notice that he has moved anything to the condo. I think he stayed there while me and the kids were away because he was never at home when we called him there and he only called us from his cell phone, even late at night. He told me has has bought some furniture.
The kids and I just got back from Colorado for 10 days so we did have that trip. It is too late now for our beach trip. H and I have gone there for 10 summers straight so it makes me sad that it isn't happening.
H mentioned wanting to take the kids to a closer beach for a couple days during that week "since you got to take them on 2 vacations by yourself" (he was referring to Spring Break and Colorado). I guess that is his prespective, but i find that so odd. Both those trips were meant to be FAMILY vacations for all of us - he chose not to come. He wouldn't commit to doing either, so I planned each vacation then before booking gave him another chance to say he would come. He had an excuse both times so we went anyway.
I told him that I didn't think it would be right to tell the kids he is moving out and then immediately take them on vacation by just himself. We chose not to tell them before I took them to Colorado because we didn't think that was right. I told him once things have settled down, they'd probably like to go away with him.
So, maybe it will be this weekend that he wants to tell them.
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