Its normal. You want a switch to be flipped and the good to start happening. Its ok. It will be ok. Just do something nice for Kenny today.
Hey, what is your happiest childhood memory? Think about it. View it like a movie. And then share it with your kids so they will know something about you. (At the ripe old age of 19, my S has already heard most of my stories. Even if I forget, he usually remembers and gives me a big groan. Though, he usually smiles when he does it.)
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.