that now that he is admitting that he life is no longer rosey and he is having remorse for the A, is he starting to come out of the fog? I know it is not healthy to hold onto this hope because it then keeps me waiting. He has said that he wants the D.
I had such a convo with stbx once, after the LS was in the works, how he felt bad and low and the mistakes he made... I actually thought that it was a prelude to him halting the LS, boy he got mad when i suggested to postpone the LS meeting! he was just venting about his feelings, nothing to do with not wanting the LS. He's made up his mind that the M was a mistake, and ow or no ow he didnt' want back.
The best thing is, not to have this kind of talks anymore, he has no clue how damaging this talks are, how they give you a bit of hope, he's selfish and doen'st understand the magnitude of how much this whole thing hurts you.
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I keep going over conversations that we had in hopes of finding him starting to de-fog
I went though that too hon, I bet all in this board at some point went though every convo, trying to extract something to which we can hang on, something they said that might, just might, mean more than what really meant at the time.
Keep the NC hon, it's the best way to heal))))))))))))))))))))))
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
