Col. Sanders STARTED Kentucky Fried Chicken after he was 65. I agree with Phil, you never know what purpose God has for your life.
Look, I know you're hurting, MC69. But stop beating yourself up over your PAST sins. God forgave you for those long ago, and washed you clean ("If we confess our sins, then God is faithful and just, and will forgive us our sins, and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.") The enemy is just recalling these to your mind to convict you. Tell him to "get behind you," because "greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world."
Don't give up. Be the strong, mature one, and ask God to show you what it is He wants you to do.
