So much has changed. My divo was final one year ago yesterday. My house was quiet. Peanut was with me for a while, but it was his weekend, and is his week to have her ALLLLLLLL week
Positives ~ Things are going pretty good at work - raise, upcoming promotion?
Peanut and I are wonderful - get along better than ever.
I feel like I might be worth a bit more than originally thought.
Negatives ~
I still deal with the anger. Anger that I was blamed for so much when I wasn't completely at fault. Angry that he seems to be "living it up", the "fun" parent, but can't be bothered to actually pay for the things that matter. Angry that I wasted so much time, and angry for feeling like a fool. (obviously still need to work on that a smidge!)
I miss Peanut and don't share well.
Tired, burnt out on 2 jobs, broke.
That being said - I would not trade. I know the path wasn't the correct one but I wouldn't change it. I would still be treated like crap, belittled, not loved like I should have been, and it would have all been passed off like a joke.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
