What is ickiest is accepting that it took two of us to get to this point. That he was done.
In my case.. I was pretty good and more than willing to accept the blame for our relationship until I heard the rumor about the girlfriend. So much of marriage parallels my relationship with my dad. Once I realized he still had sex with my mom AND did this crap to me, I was done. I was willing to be a sacrificial lamb until I realized it had no basis.
I literally said no in my mind, told him he would never touch me again.. and he never did. The fear stayed but the physical never returned.
I gotta get some of this mojo back. Instead of feeling hurt and defensive, I should stand tall and proud. I stayed in a marriage for all the right reasons. When a couple doesn't or won't work on rifts then sh*t happens.
Time to start walking and take off the "Imma Viktim" name tag.
