Really upside down #2

[upside_downer]

Good points Neil. I need to iron out what I want to do. I'm all over the map and she called me out on it today. I told her I felt we should see each other more and talk more. Problem is that when she left, I told her the exact opposite. I told her then that it was her decision to separate so we shouldn't see each other often because what is the point of the separation then?

This sort of thing is what she is referring to when she says I'm not being consistent and she wishes she knew where I was coming from. It's because of this that she feels tense around me. I need to be consistent and be happy to see her (already am, but my fears and anxiety and lack of patience show through instead).

I already talked to her once today. I so want to call her and start this fresh attitude with her, but I should wait. I don't want to seem needy and/or pursuing too heavily (although I think she needs me to pursue a little).