On the bumpy road towards found...

[JWS]

Glad that I found your new post quickly, I just wanted to say put that 2x4 away. You are still the Db Ninja. That kind of situation with him being so cold but actually talking about real issues is going to be hard for any of us. I think you handled yourself to the best you were able in that situation and that is all we can ask for. And like I did last night your screw up was telling him you love him and want him. We all know that is not the best for us right now but I would much rather error on letting them know that then not.

One thing that you have shown me is that you learn from your setbacks very quickly and every time you are not impressed with your own performance you hit the next one out of the park. Also remember that both your emotions were very high and it was not easy for him either, I am sure that he also said things that he is regretting.

Keep working that insurance issue, you deserve and need it and it may keep you in some sort of separation rather then D. At the very least you can use it to ask for more time to thoroughly research other insurance options.

Just hang in there, I KNOW that you will be just fine if this does not go the way we all want it to, so since you have that to fall back on to, you can give a lot more of yourself to this.