Suzanne, messing up is okay. I don't think you did tho. Sleeping on & off is killer for the nervous system. Have you tried melatonin, or valerian ?

I've been on lorazepam & wellbutrin for about 2 years now. I finally started sleeping through the night when my doctor added proxac.

Hugs

M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months
4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10
I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.