losing sunshine but gaining happiness either way

[LosingSunshine]

Okay. Long afternoon and evening. The course was slow today so my buddy and I played four balls each per hole...9 hole course. Then tonight we went to the race track to watch the sprint and modified cars. My first time ever and I had a blast. A few wrecks, flips and fires. Wow! Of course, when I get home the W has to run off but we did have a pleasant conversation. I turned up the heat a little with some questions. She agreed to read what ken posted about ACOA. That should be eye opening to her. I also asked her how much her parents know about the sitch. The reasons leading up to it and everything that has been going on since. They are clueless as she has told them nothing much. She asked why I wanted to know and I said I was just wondering. I also talked about how tonigt and what I am doing with the kids tomorrow is all with other families. I also said that she is more than welcome to join us as well as join us at church tomorrow. She declined.

I will be letting my l know Monday am about W plan to move out and take kids. I will also being the subject up with w when she is not so emotional.

My question from earlier today was based on me trying to make sense of the past. Still curious if anyone has any thoughts. Maybe it's because she is ACOA? Maybe she was abused? NFC.

Mike, I hear what you are saying and please keep it coming. I have a lot at stake with some heavy decisions I need to make in the coming days. I know what I want for the kids and I am confused as to whether it is my love of W or fear for my kids future that is making me waffle and be a little indecisive. I am going to pray about it and yet to figure it out here in the next day or so.


LFW, we don't have the financial ability for her to move out but I think the heck her dad sent her this week is to help her with that. Going to stand my ground with the kids until I she a digned doc in front of me though and my l is involved.

It's late and there is severe weather coming.
Chris