56 is not too old to get on with your life. You can find things to do to get out of the house. Go for walks, take up some form of exercise, find some activities to get involved at church--outside of all the counseling you are doing.
I see all your talk about going to God as giving up. You need to step out on faith that the Lord will provide you the means to cope.
"Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you."--Matthew 7:7
SMW
Good post, SMW! In the Bible devotion I was reading today, it talked about God doesn't make mistakes, so when you feel like you're in a dead end or whatever, it is where God wants you. I think you can take this experience and turn it into a positive: work on yourself, get closer to God, make new friends, get in better physical shape by exercising, try to help others, etc. I've been reading and learning and feel I've learned from this experience, learned to become more appreciative, and not sleepwalking through life. So in a weird way I am kind of happy that this stuff has happened to me (maybe I'm a closet masochist?) Karen
Karen