Alright, just turned 301 days separated, and nothing looks like it is going to change.
This bit of hope I've been holding onto is getting thinner and thinner.
She recently asked me to be a volunteer coach for our 3 year-old's soccer team, which I agreed to.
We had a conversation a few nights ago in which I sincerely appoligized for huring her in the past. She seemed to listen, but I dont think it makes a difference to her anymore.
I carry a lot of guilt for doing to her what I did (recap: I'm bipolar), and I feel absolutely HORRIBLE for it, but the reality is there's nothing I can do about the past except make it clear to her how sorry I am, make a promise to keep doing what I'm doing to get betteer, and show her I'm not the same anymore.
