2 steps forward, 3 back

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OMG, I am soooo glad you said that. Last night I registered for online dating, a free site. I went on this morning and ended up chatting with someone who turns out graduated a year after me in my HS. Anyway, I have been on it all day and it has been a needed distraction. Though at this time I don't think I am ready, it has surprisingly given me hope that perhaps one day there will be another - - and believe me that is something that could not have been further from my beliefs.

I do think you hit the nail on the head, now that my head has a few clear seconds. I was thinking myself that I should back off on the 3 lists of demands I wrote. I knew anyway that he would blame them on my jeleousy anyway. I was going to ask for the kids for another day which would mean 4 days me, 3 him. I don't think he will like it much, he will believe and partially true that I am trying to get them away from OW. But for me it is also about me needing them more right now - and certainly him less. And stability I feel for them is a good thing. especially when school starts. What do you think? If he fights me then my only other option is to fight it in court - lots of money I don't have and might still remain 50/50.

I have to try and re-read divorce remedy again. It is just so painful to hear right now I don't think I could. Help convince me. I know it will help me even if I know he will not ever return. He has already filed.