Thanks to all of you, and PDT, rest assured I won't suicide. Like I told Phil, I tried it once in 1978, and again in 89. Just couldn't do it; I'm too much of a coward. And I have a $100K life insurance policy, which pays nothing if I die by suicide. After the D is final I will change the one who benefits to my step-grandson, somehow.
I talked to my friends in Charlotte; they have a DJ gig to run right now. Went looking for a friend in Burlington who was a member of the church I used to attend in 1974 and 1980. He wasn't in, even after 2 tries. Looks like I'm on my own tonight.
It wasn't enough of a shock to find out that she was bent on leaving me anyway. But it was worse when I realized why she was so ready, and that I never had a marriage, ever. She even said that the day before she left, but I thought she was making some kind of derogatory comment about me.
