Thanks for the feedback Jon. I have an appt on Monday with my IC. I really need some help clarifying things, but, as I go round and round and round in my mind, I keep coming to a conclusion. My conclusion is that I am still willing to take her back and I'm willing and able to forgive her and I'm willing to work hard on our M, if she is willing to walk away from the crap she's been doing. I feel that I've reached the point where my GAL involves moving on. I will always love my wife because I choose to do so. Until one of us is in a committed LTR, I will be open to working on our R and even remarrying. I don't have the strength or the endurance to continue in this limbo in the hope that things will be better in a year or two.
In some ways I feel like a quitter. Perhaps I am and perhaps my C can help me to see other paths.
