Hi. I haven't read your whole situation but will try to help. Yes it is terrible to be in so much pain but I do believe that by looking at other people situations and trying to help, you do help heal yourself.

You must take care of yourself. It is not an option. If you crash and burn how will that ever help to get your wife back? This situation has changed who you are as well. Try to keep a picture of yourself in your mind...the you that you want to be. That will help you stay focused.

Nobody here deserves the hand they were dealt, the goal is to play it out the best we can. God bless.

kat


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Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory