Still having mixed feelings about H. Didn't contact him all week (no reason to, really), but he called me once to ask me about something not very important and then emailed me to get some details about me and kids for insurance purposes (he's getting new medical insurance and adding us to his policy). We also spoke about life insurance last week. I told him that friend advised we get something in place before our status changes - he said he would get something "for the boys". Then when I saw him today, he asked if he should put me or the boys as the beneficiary. He initiated conversation with me by asking questions. He was also very generous and offering me things I've mentioned to him over the past few weeks. Again, much more open than he's been.
I don't get it, but I do appreciate it.
I see him and I can't imagine why I would still want to be with such an immature, cowardly, emotionally retarded adulterer. At the same time, I want to crawl up next to him, hold him, and be in his arms again.
