Yesterday morning, I reviewed the financial affidavit and signed it at the lawyer's office. We have the Temporary Orders court date on Thursday. After reading Ready's thread, it sounds like I have to meet with spouse and his lawyer, be questioned. Talk about feeling fear.
I have to remind myself that I don't have to be intimidated by this process. Anything that makes me insecure I can deal with. If I'm concerned about how the money has been spent, I can go through and give an accounting of it. Deal with facts, not emotions or intimidation. Spouse knows what rattles me. I will not succumb to feeling defenseless.
His actions are not about how much they upset or offend me. It's him doing what he needs to do to live the life he wants. My emotional wellbeing is not a factor in the process.
I give up.
I GIVE up.
I give UP.
Giving up can sound so self defeating. Giving up can be a release. Giving up can be an offering.
It's all perception.
I've gone from being completely stuck to standing looking at a signpost with lots of direction arrows:
Forwardville Stuck City Backslide Gulch Tomorrowland
My choice. My life.
Each path rocky. The funny thing is, the bad choices always lead you back to the good ones.. unless you want to live your life as a deadend.
