losing sunshine but gaining happiness either way

[LosingSunshine]

I'll post a link to my last thread on Monday when I will be on a pc.

Lot's of thinking and deciding to do this weekend...
Do I continue fighting for my m? If the OW a dealbreaker?

Do I settle for joint custody and joint residency or let things go to court on August 14 and try for permanent temporary custody and are if W comes too?

Do I approach OW as Stubby recommends?

I read PDTs any regrets thread and have many ideas and appreciate the insight from everyone. I guess my confusion lies with not knowing which came first. WAW or EA with OW? Does it matter as it relates to how I DB?

W had a horrible emotional night last night and is not acting rationally. Maybe because I caught her in a lie. Maybe the are beginning to think I know what is going on which is why she wants to move out ASAP. How can I work this in my favor without causing her to do something stupid? Or, is that what needs to be done?

I am learning more about my love for her as I don't want to hurt her. Why do I feel that way if I don't care?

Ugh!