I haven't posted to my sitch lately, reading everyones post is hard. H4H struggles, Kelly the way she feels same with Karen and kat, Sara, can see the pain in everyones post, I'm sorry I wish I could help, I wish I could make everyone's pain go away. whatdidido is the only one moving forward in a positive way with her S and you can see her happiness. I'm glad for her.
Me I'm stuck in limbo, somewhere between pure anger and hope for a better future. Easier for me to get past anger now, just remember all the crap I put up with, will be way better off without W.
Wierd around here, W is doing little things around here for me, cutting grass, doing laundry, making me dinner, cleaning house. Not everyday, last week she cut the grass, this week she cleaned bathroom, two weeks ago she made me dinner. I guess its hard for her to detach. Detach from the house not me this was her house, she picked it out (I bought it for her) I remodeled each room, but she picked out all the colors and assessories and did all the decorating.
End of summer approaching fast, thinking of holiday season, halloween, thanksgiving, christmas. Yes I'm a planner and organizer. We have halloween and christmas here, both sides of the family, my mom and family and W's mom and dad, and friends. - nothing going to change, everyone will still be invited, want to keep things same for kids. W will be invited also but I will not accept any help from her. She will be a invited guest in my home. I'll be good and a gracious host, but you all know how I feel about my W, I'll keep those emotions in check.
I have already thought about buying a christmas present for W, I actually already know what I'm getting her Yes I'm a planner and organizer. I believe anyone and everyone who shows up at my house should have something to open up. We always have several gender neutral gifts for people who show up unexpectedly. Our home has always been a open house on Christmas-eve for anyone with no other place to go. I'm going to keep that tradition of a open house for anyone on Christmas-Eve and I'll make sure W has something to open up from each of her children.
Am I sick in the head or what I've actually been thinking of christmas already
We are getting past the pain and hurt, slowly but we are all trying to move forward. I know you are all hurting out there but you all need to keep moving forward.
I'll try to check in on all of you, you all have done so much for me and you are all in my thoughts and prayers.
M45 W41 M10 3/4 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
this was her house, she picked it out (I bought it for her) I remodeled each room, but she picked out all the colors and assessories and did all the decorating.
I've actually been thinking of christmas already 
