My thanks to all those who have done their best to help.
Since I have given up hope of ever being reunited with my wife, based on her continuous hidden infidelity going back to the day we were married, I am at the point of think that the DR book is no longer useful to me and setting it aside. I have no desire to remarry; the purpose of me waiting until I was 38 was done because I wanted it to be permanent. Here I am at 56 and I don't want any more. I just want peace in my life and I want to rely solely on God, letting Him be the sole focus of my life. And perhaps he will shorten my days.
I'm finding out that I'm not alone, even over here. My friends In Charlotte told me that another of their firends has just had this start for him, and that he, too, is in pieces.
It's happening all over, and increasing more and more. What's happening to all of us? What are we doing?
