Is it true?

[happynow]

Hi Stella,

It's easier said than done to be patient, isn't it?? I know!!

To others out there, how come it is so hard for H's to walk away from OW when it was so easy to walk away from us???

You hang in there Stella, you have been doing great so far, just a little backslide but it will be all right!

Keep praying! We are here for you!

(((HUGS)))

[stella_k]

((((Addie)))), ((((Jen)))), ((((nlt)))), ((((SMW)))),

hi and thanks.

I decided to let this thread run it's natural course :).

Its 24 days until H comes here, gets used to me again, tells me ILY, promises never to see OW again, happy ending, bla bla bla bla.

It has happened so many times already, I've lost count. Every time he'd come to visit he'd say: let's work on our M, ILU, I want our life back. And then - BOOM! - back to Spider, not calling, mumbling on the phone, etc. Out of sight, out of heart.
Unfortunately, I cannot blame it entirely on MLC. His inconsistency in decisions has been bothering me throughout our M and it is driving me crazy now.

I wanted it to be HIS decision, not influenced by my presence, just to be certain that's what he really wants! I guess, it was too much to ask of him...

Sorry about venting

[Kalni]

This is the right place to vent dear Stella. Sometimes it's scary how we can all relate to each other. Same old story, in some cases (like in yours) better than in others, but still...

You are getting impatient. I can see that. I can feel it. You want all the BS to end. Be careful now, you may be one step away form "they lived happily ever after" and set yourself back again...

The Spider is bound to get crushed. One way or the other. I know you said you can't GAL etc. You must remember you need to be attractive, promising, inviting, happy, focused. Not just for him. You need to be happy for you. You deserve it. Try to keep your mind busy and stop counting days...
Love ya
K

Thanks for the coffee

[stella_k]

You are getting impatient. I can see that. I can feel it. You want all the BS to end. Be careful now, you may be one step away form "they lived happily ever after" and set yourself back again...

I KNOW!!!! I'm sitting here looking for excuses and there are none.
The thought of D17 leaving for college is unnerving, though, as well as moving back home after 14 years...

((((Kalni))))

[Kalni]

Stella, join FB...

[stella_k]

ok

[addie]

Unfortunately, I cannot blame it entirely on MLC. His inconsistency in decisions has been bothering me throughout our M and it is driving me crazy now.

Stella, I hear you! I could have written this post myself.

You've been so patient living apart from H for so long. It's only a couple more weeks and then you'll be together. At that point there will still be a lot of work ahead of you.

HUGS!!!