This is the right place to vent dear Stella. Sometimes it's scary how we can all relate to each other. Same old story, in some cases (like in yours) better than in others, but still...
You are getting impatient. I can see that. I can feel it. You want all the BS to end. Be careful now, you may be one step away form "they lived happily ever after" and set yourself back again...
The Spider is bound to get crushed. One way or the other. I know you said you can't GAL etc. You must remember you need to be attractive, promising, inviting, happy, focused. Not just for him. You need to be happy for you. You deserve it. Try to keep your mind busy and stop counting days... Love ya K
