((((Addie)))), ((((Jen)))), ((((nlt)))), ((((SMW)))),

hi and thanks.

I decided to let this thread run it's natural course :).

Its 24 days until H comes here, gets used to me again, tells me ILY, promises never to see OW again, happy ending, bla bla bla bla.

It has happened so many times already, I've lost count. Every time he'd come to visit he'd say: let's work on our M, ILU, I want our life back. And then - BOOM! - back to Spider, not calling, mumbling on the phone, etc. Out of sight, out of heart.
Unfortunately, I cannot blame it entirely on MLC. His inconsistency in decisions has been bothering me throughout our M and it is driving me crazy now.

I wanted it to be HIS decision, not influenced by my presence, just to be certain that's what he really wants! I guess, it was too much to ask of him...

Sorry about venting \:\)

I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders
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M 46
H 45
D 17
M/T 23
Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06
Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07
Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08