Still Tryin's 3rd piecing

[S.T. _I Made It!]

oh wow CM. I had no idea she was expecting. I could not imagine what that would feel like.

I didn't realize you still had a thread going though...I guess I stopped checking after a while, I will go back and check on you. SORRY!!!

And actually, the MonaVie is doing good! I had a few people to work with that wanted to do the business, but 2 of them are in Germany doing business now for the next 4 months, but 1 girl I just signed up is very excited because her H's back pain (which was so much like mine) is going away and he's doing things he hasn't done in years!!! I'm so excited!

AND I wrote a song that we will probably play at church!!! I will definitely get it recorded and posted on myspace if we do. We just rehearsed it once last night, me on keyboard singing, the guitar and the drums., I think it sounded pretty cool too. I hope we can do it soon! I'm excited about it.

Well, gotta go, have had a busy week with fam over and bday parties.

I've gotta get back into the grove of being more intimate and initiating with my H again. I've not been doing that as much, as I've gained some of my weight back, and I've just not been as motivated on that part of the R. I definitely don't want to fall into those traps of...lack of self confidence, and lack of intimacy.

I'm also struggling big time with what to do about s10. He has recently been very adamant about NOT going to the public school again, and wanting to go to the private school we looked at. ug. We really cannot afford any private school, but I was hoping, and praying some that God would provide the $ so that he could go. I know that I've lost him in the respect of his R with Christ since he's been in public school, and his grades were just not good, in respect to what he SHOULD have gotten. and I know that he's not in an environment for him to learn the way he needs to in order to strive in school. oh, I wish we weren't in so much debt. but that's my fault, and my H's fault. I wish my H had a desire for him to go to private. He has no wish to pay for school when we can send him for free. I also wish I could homeschool again, but my H will never let me again, and my s10 wants me too, but I said that I would do what my H wants, so that I can allow him to be a leader in our household.

I wish God could give me an answer. and maybe the answer is keeping him where he is since we do not have the money to pay. They even changed the bus route so that he's farther away and that it will be right by someone in the neighborhood who is a registered sex-offender! and the transportation people won't change it.

Well, I need to go to bed as it's almost 2am!!! and I need to pray more about my s10. I am so bad about praying everyday and reading my bible everyday. It seems the day goes by so fast and I can't get everything done. I need to make a schedule for it. How does everyone else do it? Do you pray while with your children making dinner? or sit down and read while they watch tv? I find it so hard for me. although I do get on here, probably more than I read/pray, but then I feel this is a calling or a ministry for me, and in a way that is worshiping God. right?

okay, goodnight everyone.