((Kelly Jo)), I wish I had something helpful to say. My heart aches for you.
fyi, threads lock at around 100 replies, or 10-12 pages, normally.
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.