I don't know if H is really moving out this weekend or not. Nothing has really been said about it since Monday or Tuesday when I told him I didn't want to talk about the R anymore.
D left to move her things up to her new condo for the upcoming school year. She left this morning. MTV was going to be there filming her BF again, so she was semi-excited about being on camera again this weekend. Her BF just turned pro (ultimate fighting mixed martial arts) and has his first pro fight this weekend...so MTV is there to film that for the show in September. Anyway, D is gone...which was the reason H hadn't already left. We will see what transpires. I'm up and down....happy and sad....I'm trying to make the best of it and be or at least act happy all the time. I know if he leaves I will be alright...at least I think so now...when the time comes, I may just fall apart all over again.
I'm taking things 30 minutes at a time...no longer looking at a day at a time...that's too hard! I'm trying to figure out plans for the future...be it alone or with H. It's hard to plan going to see family not knowing if we will be together or not...but I am trying to get things together.
My friend who is moving back from NC is having difficulty finding a place to stay for the interim while her house in NC is for sale....we have the townhouse still for sale and could rent it to her on a month to month basis...but then poor H wouldn't have his backup plan in place...so I don't really know what to do about it. We are supposedly going to discuss it this weekend and call her next week...IDK? Part of me wants to rent it to her and part of me doesn't want to close the door on H moving in there and getting his s$%^ straight. ????
We are taking the rest of D's things to her this weekend, so I will be in and out...I hope to have time to get online and visit all of your threads and catch back up!
Know I'm thinking and praying for each and everyone of you! I wish we would have never had to go through any of this pain to find and make such good friends with each other!
Have a good weekend everyone!
Hugs!
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Me:43 H:48 M:24 yrs T: 26 yrs 2 kids ILYNILWYA 8-07 - MOW 9-07 H moved out 8-2-08 Back 8-18-08 Affair continues Back home but not emotionally
