it's overwhelming sometimes to say the least... i'm sure alot of people here have just as much going on and feel the same way. the last couple nights i haven't gotten hardly any sleep. i can't fall asleep while she's awake, no matter how tired I am, if she's awake and no one else is awake with her, i can't sleep. (not an excuse, i physically cannot fall asleep) so wednesday night when i fell asleep while i was feeding her (she always falls asleep while she eats) H gave me a hard time about it. I told him that I am tired and i was going to rest while she was eating, since i can't exactly do anything else while i'm feeding her anyways. i didn't have the energy to argue the point then, but i did make sure that he knows i will sleep when i need it, provided D4 and D2 are in bed. he wasn't happy, but i don't care. Sleep is more important than anything else when i have to be driving the next morning.

i think i struggle between the not treating him like a child and treating him like a child thing. I suppose the difference is in the consequence... rather than getting grounded, i'm backing off. I don't yell and scream (physically can't handle it), but i can do less and less that is specifically for him until he starts acting differently.

Thank you for the hugs and advice... much needed and appreciated!! \:\) ann

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