Moving over & on

[waw1978]

Well I got my final court date. In two more weeks I will be divorced. Funny how the finality of it stirs of up all sorts of feelings. I was surprised at how relieved I was to have a firm date. But I am also more surprised at how I keep going over every little detail of the M in my head and wondering about different scenarios. Thinking back to the last time we were happy and trying to pin point what could have been done differently. Its torturous. I have found at least half a dozen things that could have contributed to the downfall and had we recognized that or made a different decision maybe we wouldn't be here. But the one thing that I had no control over, was how he changed. How he didn't want to fight for the M, how it would always have to be on his terms.

Oh well. Can't turn back time and can't re-write the past.

Got to keep on moving forward...