Ms. Imp and her Magic Kumquat

[girlfromipanema]

Hello, wonderful friends. Feeling a little out of it today. Stayed out with my friend till midnight and I'm usually in bed by 9:00. Woke up at my usual 5:00 a.m. to workout and I'm sleepy.

My husband wakes later than I do so we're not in our tiny home gym at the same time. After my shower, while he was working out, I asked if I could ask him a question.

H: Sure.
Me: Are you being so kind to me now because you feel a sense of relief?
H: Silence
Me: Do you feel a weight has been lifted off your shoulders now that I've 'let go' of the marriage?
H: crickets chirping
Me: It's just that you've been so ice cold to me for so many months and suddenly, since our decision to officially divorce, you've been really kind to me. I'm trying to understand the shift.
H: I don't feel relief. I'm hurt. Things are moving so fast and I have a million and one things on my mind.
Then he got up and gave me a long hug but didn't say anything else. Just silence.
Me: I never wanted you to be hurt.
H: Silence
Me: You sure have a hard time expressing yourself in words.
H: Silence

I'll tell you all about the beautiful Italian man a little later. Let me drink my coffee. Hopefully it will lift my spirits.

xoxoxoxoxoxo,
R