Being stuck and the ability to make good decisions do not go hand in hand.
I've been getting unstuck by seeing a great therapist (who was recommended by my psychiatrist) and having excellent medication management. It also comes from trusting.
Me.. I don't like to trust. I've see the psychiatrist for 12 years and only recently started to trust him (since I hated the idea of taking meds.. hence part of him was always the enemy).
My therapist thinks very highly of him, he thinks very highly of the therapist and between the two of them I am getting in a much better place. They have my back.
Having my back means that the therapist watches to see if I whirl or obsess on a thought, on an aspect that is not clinical but gets me "stuck". As she explains, if I obsess, get stuck, then I'm not in a good place to make decisions. And this is a time for good decisions.
You sound like you're dancing as fast as you can, putting as positive a spin as possible, frenetic.
What happens if you stop. Just stop and relax. Stop and take time to think. Stop worrying. The fear is frightening, but it is not real. Your hands are real, your laughter is real. The fear, the anxiety wreak havoc. They tempt with a sliver of truth blown out of proportion. There are ways to stop the fear.. do something physical, get busy. Think of anxiety and worry as mental masturbation. It feels good for only so long.. then it gets tiresome.
Take time.. T I M E.. for you. Journal with pen in hand. Write. Be in one place.
