Left the Rollercoaster - Now what???

[No Longer BH]

Thanks Cat. Part of me wonders that now that he is admitting that he life is no longer rosey and he is having remorse for the A, is he starting to come out of the fog? I know it is not healthy to hold onto this hope because it then keeps me waiting. He has said that he wants the D. I told him that if he changes his mind he knows where I am. He also said that he still feels so much anger towards me (for what I have no idea. never shared anything with me).

I am still trying to detach and live my own life. I think that by moving on I have the best possible chance of keeping peace in my life. If he comes to a place of understanding then he can come back to me. I really hate that I still look for these nuggets of hope. It keeps me in limbo instead of allowing me to move into exceptance. Wish my heart would just let him go like my head has. One day at a time......